20.4.08
okays ... this is the 99th n last post for this blog ...
i'm MOVING!
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started this blog to record wad i saw n felt in europe ...
& now 1 yr has passed!
juz likdat ...
its scary ...
n a little saddening ... to hafta tell myself to put those wonderful memories aside n move on ...
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bfor i get more emo ...
the new blog name is not any better than salmons & hens ...
but i'll juz make do with it till i'm enlightened with a better one :D
EDIT
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was enlightened -> exactly wad i'm feeling at this point in time
8:02 PM
have been too 'comfy' with my job for the past few WEEKS to job search (omg)
not that i'm in love with wad i'm doing ...
(in fact i dun think i would try out for such jobs again)
but i'm juz so 'settled down' right now ...
& me being me ...
i'm change adverse ...
finally moved my butt to send some resumes today ...
& 2s enough to kill my brain cells ... seriously ...
lets juz hope i'll have some luck with these 2 first ...
then i'll try to find MORE motivation to do a more intensive search nxt weekend ...
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ordered from f21 myself :D
hope the order gets through n shipping that pair of wedges wont kill :X
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1 good & shocking news!
i got invited to Ant's ROM ...
exciting anot ...
i'm gonna attend a frens ROM for the first time ...
(lol ... i'm sure there'll be more to come)
1:53 PM
23.3.08
so i finally got about opening the little red packets ...
(yes ... the ones dated early feb)
somehow i've been too
(no one can beat me at procrastinating :P)
& easter break seems like the right time to give them a good count :)
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speaking abt easter break ...
i cant believe my 3 days are almost over!
i'm feeling the blues ...
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will the job market be generous to me too?
2:50 PM
14.3.08
OM(freaking)G ...
how do i explain that bouquet of flowers to my mom ?!?!?!
8:37 PM
9.3.08
nxt week's target:
finish checking all accounts so that i can move on to new stuff
(provided my notebook is here as promised!)
do more OTs to cover my expenses
(lol)
attend some interviews
(hopefully?)
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even xy thinks i m a job hopper -_-
how m i going to convince others that i m not ...
grrr ...
10:35 PM
5.3.08
yay its midweek !!! like finally ......
i would be lying if i said i'm enjoying myself more over here ...
i like being seated far far away frm HEAD & BOSS...
& i like my window seat ...
but ...
i dun have a comp as of now ...
(makes me wonder y they need an xtra person ard)
i'm assigned to do manual data entry bcos of that ...
(i realise that numbers appeal more to me than words)
i feel like i'm not learning the things that i want to learn frm taking up this assignment ...
(maybe its too early to tell)
& not to mention ... NOBODY lunches together in this office ...
(again???)
so i was super happy when HEAD told me that i shud start searching for a perm job ...
even if she's trying to hint that there is nil possibility of conversion i'm still super thankful for that you-r-free-to-go-if-u-want sign ...
no more making of the same mistakes for the 3rd time!
9:47 PM
27.2.08
Operations Executive (Middle Office) (Fresh Grads Welcome!)
omg ... y is my timing always so wrong -_-
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i kind of have this really bad feeling that i'll be job hopping after my contract is up ...
(when i haven even started work yet !?!)
wad is wrong with me ...
*reminds self to stop looking through job portals for
**reminds self to not rush into decisions
***reminds self to not be deluded by anything french
****reminds self to not compare
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but then again ...
wad m i trying to achieve right now ???
as much money as possible in the shortest amt of time ???
i need some enlightenment -_-
9:06 PM
26.2.08
given the twist of events ...
i wont be meeting my rich engineers/product developers/managing directors anymore ...
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i noe i m an irresponsible baddy ...
so this is wad growing up is abt?
lying/coming up with excuses to save ur own ass ...
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anyhows ...
this one's relatively unheard of ...
pays me lower ... &
wans me to work OT ...
but i'm still attracted to it ...
cos its french!
lol
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the good news is i have 5 days left to enjoy my wii !!!
hoho ... its gd excercise ! really !!
7:27 PM
25.2.08
hohoho ... this really came to me as a shock ...
i'll be employed for 1 mth (tentatively)!!!
starting tmr ...
as lao ban bei hou de nu ren ... lol
i wonder ...
where do pple normally have their meals in tuas?
& whether air is fresher over there at 745am?
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its time to learn how to deal with pple ...
& meet some rich engineers / product developers / managing directors ...
hohoho ...
i hope the peeps over there r nice :)
4:55 PM
14.2.08
frm my bro-in-law ...
& everyone had one :D
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my lil sis saes she doesnt like the fact that her bday falls on vday ...
but i think its actually pretty cool ...
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i wan my wii !!!
the mass order was cancelled T.T
9:22 PM
24.1.08
but she doesnt seem too happy with it ...
i rem 6 years ago ...
in that veri same hall ...
i was also upset with myself over a 1 point increment ...
sounds silly ...
but human beings juz cant help but to compare themselves with others ...
although my little sis definitely has the potential to do better ...
what she has achieved has alreadi surpassed her prelim results & not to mention both big sis n my L1R5 ...
lol ...
so i m still super proud of her :)
3:00 PM
23.1.08
maybe i should rename my wednesdays as
the-unofficial-interview-day
or
the-ultimate-suay-day
if u're thinking wad can be worse than an interviewer who keeps telling u that she doesnt think u r suitable ...
well ...
to be told that the position u have been eyeing for has been closed on the very afternoon of ur interview ...
beat that ...
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can someone remind lady luck that the new year has arrived ...
& that she's supposed to renew my luck count ?????????
6:15 PM
22.1.08
Do not apply if you are looking to be a small cog in a big machine
eeeks ...
time to change my mentality ...
2:33 PM
16.1.08
the interview i attended today is kind of weird ...
filling up of long questionaires is fine ...
writing of short essays is fine as well ...
but having the interviewer tell me throughout the interview that she doesnt think i m suitable is -_-
makes me wonder y i m there in the first place ...
7:14 PM
14.1.08
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so i still din manage to send out my resume for the Graphic Designer/Visual Merchandiser position today ...
doubt i ever will ...
no qualifications + no relevant skills = no confidence
in any case ... who would employ someone who noes nth?
i shud juz stick to my safety zone ...
yes i noe ... typical gia si sgian -_-
5:27 PM
6.1.08
but i juz couldnt resist the wii console deal ...
wii console +
wii sports +
2 free games +
2 wiimote
tell me i made the right choice :D
10:51 AM
31.12.07
2hrs ferry ride frm sg ...
Tanjung Pinang!
(Capital of Riau Islands)
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our little beach 'resort' ...
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& the surprise behind our 'resort' ...
we wish!!! lol ...
those r actually pics of the Trikora Beach taken on day 2 ...
what we got behind our little 'resort' is actually this ...
all concrete no sand ...
but we still pretty much entertained ourselves with our sillying ard ...
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day 2 to the real beach ...
1hr + drive from our 'resort' ...
45SGD for hired vehicle ...
& it was all worth it!
super fine weather!
the sky reminds me of europe :)
i usually love taking food pics ...
but this is the onli few i took during the trip ...
seafood isnt my fav ...
& local cuisines i cant quite adapt ...
so this is instant mie + telur + sayur ...
IDR5000 ...
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so our super budget budget trip actually turned out pretty well! lol
loved the beach ...
loved practising my level 1 bahasa melayu & making a fool of ourselves before the locals ...
the only torturous part is getting stuck on the choppy sea ...
gd thing the motion sickness pills worked :)
6:03 PM
10.12.07
neither is it an easy one ...
the only thing left to do now ...
is to proof that its the right one ...
7:48 PM
5.12.07
my colleagues r kind of puzzled y i took halfday ...
but i dun care :P
i wanna send my mamee off & at the same time take a break from work ...
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E saes i shud stop saying i have nth to do cos its v xie men ...
have experienced the xie men bit ...
ie. got scolded by RM on the same day i told her dec workload is light ...
but honestly i would rather be super bz than having to countdown to the end of the day ...
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had this weird tot yest ...
to simply skip this part of my life & move on to the having-a-family portion ...
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things r not THAT bad ...
but i juz have no idea y i'm losing the desire ...
6:08 AM
29.11.07
i was shocked bcos she has only been with us for a mth ...
but deep down i knew y she made that decision ...
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then came todae ...
i told myself not to get affected by someone else's decision ...
but fate has to show me the ugly side of being onboard ...
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din wanna present myself as being vulnerable or weak ...
but having someone bark at me unreasonably is not something i can get used to in a day or two ...
to think that i still have to smile at him knowing that he has stabbed me in the back ...
that screams extremely fake to me ...
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is this really what i wanna do for the rest of my life ??? or even the nxt few years or so ??? to sell my soul to slavery ???
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5 more mths ...
i'll either end up a stronger person or a loserish quitter ...
9:18 PM
20.11.07
given less than an hr ...
he made his way to the living room ...
pouched 1 of the leaves of mamee's moneyplant ...
& still had time to nap under my bedroom sofa bfor i found him!
i find it extremely cute that he recognised my room as his 'home' ...
but i guess everyone else din ...
so i'm barred from opening hammie's cage when i'm not around ...
7:03 AM
18.11.07
the other day the little guy had a mini excursion to the kitchen while everyone was asleep ...
i tot the cage we made for him was foolproof but nay ... hammie's smarter! lol
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big boss (BB) invited everyone to his hse for some partying on fri ...
mingling ard with pple is juz not my thing ...
+ i dun know 90% of the pple there & i dun drink ...
so half of the time i was checking out the time n wishing we could leave ... lol
loserish ...
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so nxt week's my last week n theres no news of renewal or extension ...
actually part of me is dying for a break ... lol
juz a few days where i dun need to stress myself with RMs / knowing my products well / committing nil mistakes ...
a trip to new zealand with mamee n small yi sounds tempting!
5:39 PM
4.11.07
(i think)
my poor boy ...
he can still eat n drink normally but ... i'll be depressed if i loose one of my front tooth ... so he muz be damn upset too ...
gonna get him a bigger bar-less cage ...
& pray that the tooth will grow back?
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this weekend is spent shopping (online) :D
yes i can finally enjoy pampering myself (& xy) with my hard earned money ...
(ok i noe there's still 3 weeks to payday but i've been too disciplined for the past 3 mths :P)
this is a muz get!
tooo cute :)
xy & i fell in love with it at first sight ... hoho
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i still have that same stack of readings that i've yet to touch ...
i m so dead ...
9:31 AM
1.11.07
seems like i can start counting down to my remaining
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somehow i feel that i'm not part of the family yet due to the contract status ...
everyone has been really nice to me though ...
(maybe my fang xiao ren red packet works :D)
& i've been learning lots of new stuff which is really enjoyable ...
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well well well ...
as my old saying goes ...
lets see where fate takes me ...
9:47 PM
28.10.07
i fainted in the train on my first day of internship ...
& the sole of my shoe came off on my first day of work ...
(my trusty $10 black pumps frm hk T.T)
so dear mr golden turtle ... its time to make ur grand appearance ...
i'm waiting ... hoho
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first day of work ...
i seriously haven felt this tired for a v long time ...
using my brains n keeping my eyes open throughout the day needs some getting used to ...
this job is going to be challenging ...
i can feel it ...
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what is wrong with youtube ?! i juz wanna watch my gntm ... grrrrrrrrrr
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i shall go make the fang xiao ren red packet ...
7:40 PM
25.10.07
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pls let the pple i meet be nice ...
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i feel like chopping my hair off ...
5:19 PM
24.10.07
papa & mamee r seriously more excited than me abt fri ...
i'm feeling emotional somehow ...
it has been a long wait ...
& i would miss out shopping with xy for her prom dress ...
& watching my hammie all day ...
& bringing him out when he bites the bar ...
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i m silly ...
12:36 PM
23.10.07
& i hope its the right one ...
lets juz see where fate will take me ...
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xy's been really stressed up these days ...
the evil 'O's ...
i noe that she can do well ...
she juz needs to believe in herself ...
(perhaps sisters tend to suffer frm the same weakness)
i shud stop growling at her for a mth ...
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i m obsessed with my silly little grumpy king-of-the-jungle-who-sleeps-like-a-shrimp boy :)
11:29 PM
argh ...
i hate uncertainties ...
& i hate myself for doubting my own capabilities ...
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i'm 7 min late in giving a reply ...
but i need more time to think ...
argh ...
argh ...
argh ...
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my trusty consultants sae i shud go for it although its onli contract work ...
so ...
i still cant make up my mind !?
2:54 PM
18.10.07
i better not let anyone down this time round ...
jiayou!!!
2:47 PM
16.10.07
offering to help me in one way or another ...
but somehow i wanna fight this battle alone ...
i cant be relying on others forever can i :)
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& yes its official ...
i'm the last one standing ...
the thought of losing my comrades to the working world is demoralising yet motivating ...
the complexity of being a human being ...
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some pple nvr fail to disappoint ...
the line will be drawn ...
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update 16:24
y do banks like to call me for all those credit card crap instead of a proper job interview !?!?
& muz they be so persistent by giving me 2 miss calls !?!?
i felt like a total fool -_-
11:39 AM
2.10.07
#1 a sch mate whom i haven been in contact with since yr 1 contacted me bcos she mistook my number for her fren's number ...
after a veri awkward conversation on the phone ... she said she might be able to intro me an events job ...
(i initially tot she was going to sell me some insurance product!)
#2 the tour leader frm my hk trip 2/3 yrs back contacted me through msn !?!?!? he said he found my email scribbled in some old namecards of his -_-
7:08 PM
30.9.07
brunch at hai tian lou ...
liked the fried shrimp in beancurd skin & har gao ...
the rest were ok ...
& dessert was onli good to look at ...
wad stood out was the excellent service n superb view!
the taitai wannabes couldnt contain their excitement !!! hoho ...
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i need a job to fund my pigging out sessions T.T
2:42 PM
19.9.07
but u still wish that they could be more sensitive ...
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xy bought donuts!
they taste alright to me :X
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expectations and disappoinments r positively related ...
8:44 AM
17.9.07
den i'll be able to scream till my heart's content ...
i cant stop them frm being disappointed when i myself am also unsatisfied with the words that came out of my mouth ...
anyhows ... its once again another exp ...
and at least i managed to expand my collection of possible interview qns -_-
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the job hunt has to go on!
5:34 PM
14.9.07
i cant stop smiling silly ...
not bcos i did a great job ...
but bcos i can finally shove that heavy burden off my shoulders ...
i rem rattling incoherently and making conflicting statements ...
but the interviewers did laugh along ...
maybe at my silliness ... lol
anyhows its over n i did gain some insight on how a normal proper interview is like ...
so if it's fated that i have this special affinity towards an all-female kind of environment ... i'll get the job ...
otherwise i'll be bucking up for the nxt :D
12:35 PM
13.9.07
boo ... this tee ran out of my size :(
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i'm feeling the nerves again ...
research
research
research
prepare
prepare
prepare
11:03 AM
12.9.07
my little boy has tolerated my nonesense for 1 yr :X
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its kind of hard not to be grumpy when u're 1 yr older n jobless ... lol
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anyhows i went to take my passport size photo todae & i realised that things r really advanced now !!!
the uncle took a set of pics for me n allowed me to choose ... haha ... so nice of him ...
& 6 pics for 7 bucks is cheap rite ...
u even get an order number ... so that u can call them up to get ur photos reprinted ...
v thoughful service :D
10:19 PM
6.9.07
cos everyone wasnt too appreciative of my caramelised-turned-chocolate-coated-apple-slices :S
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xy has advised me not to try my hands on cooking again :X
9:23 PM
10
10
*throws confetti*
4:06 PM
5.9.07
edible but totally not worth the 4 hrs effort ...
zzz ...
wad was i thinking man ...
3:28 PM
4.9.07
Potato Gratin for the Meat Lover
(adapted frm wuzun's recipe in 大小愛吃)
required:
potatoes x 6?
white button mushrooms x 5
onion x 1/4
garlic x 1
ham x 1
sausage x 4
Leggo's Alfredo pasta sauce x 5 tablespoon
salt
pepper
butter x 1/4 block
*slurps*
given the thumbs up by papa who doesnt like cream & cheese ...
so my 3 hrs in the kitchen was worth it :D
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nxt challenge --> lasagna
guess i've finally found better things to do than video surfing ... lol
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1 more resume till i hit my first 10!
i'm such an optimist :D
8:31 PM
3.9.07
he cracks me up & makes bus rides unsleepable ... lol
u'll see y ...
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he's perhaps the onli foreigner fren that i still keep in contact with since the trip ...
guess it's still easier for asians to inter-click?
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tired of mentioning abt/preparing myself for calls ...
so i shall start to get myself hooked to coffee prince ...
muz be damn good if its recommended by a korean :D
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kat ar kat ar ...
tsk tsk tsk ...
u owe me an explanation ... haha
12:37 AM
24.8.07
就是因为它有很多转角
有的转角很惊险
有的转角又充满惊喜
是惊喜
还是惊险
不走过去
当然就不知道
下一个转角你会遇到什么"
- 秦朗
fantasy couple is only nice after ep 10 ...
hello slping bag -_-
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i've finally advanced to the somebody-anybody-pls-call-me stage ...
yes i m that desperate ...
11:06 PM
16.8.07
again ...
abt wad i wan in life ...
wouldnt sae my future is bleak now ...
but i seriously need some enlightenment ...
some guidelines? (lol)
& maybe a little push ...
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was talking to lai niu abt some GIP prog ...
when i realised that i've been too ignorant (all my life)...
too firm a believer of chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi perhaps ...
so much so that i always end up lost at every new junction ...
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i need to start telling the directions!
12:08 AM
15.8.07
received rejection #2 ...
& there's still no news frm my other 2 applications :X
m i really too picky ???
8:39 AM
13.8.07
love the way he loves his food ... lol
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track 3!
我爱的人
我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
10:46 PM
10.8.07
but backaches n low quality slp aint that fun ...
bro-in-law isnt going to stay over again tonight ... is he?
9:25 AM
9.8.07
have surprisingly mastered the art of balancing on a bicycle ... lol
n its strictly balancing only ...
cos my turns can kill ...
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managed to collect a grand total of 6 mosquito bites ...
mosquitoes seem to have a liking for the B- bloodtype aye ...
esp those with white stripes on their legs ...
i hope they r not aedes ...
i have better things to do than falling sick ... i guess?
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public holidays r no longer special when everyday's a holiday ...
so sch kids shud stop complaining abt sch ...
6:00 PM
8.8.07
checking job portals when i'm awake
trying my best to make reading of 'today' a habit
finding all sorts of videos to entertain myself
disturbing mr grumpy
silently hope that companies dont call me for interview
going through europe pics to relive the times
& then laughing at the silly things that we did
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finally finished uploading most of the pics to webshots
bapoineurope2
bapoineurope
only the tour one is captioned though
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ate 4 slices of choc banana cake over the span of 3 days :X
(hello double chin)
think i'm going to degenerate into a sloth soon
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anyhows i really like siao jing teng
so more videos of him!
singing bei pan
my poor cao ge seems to be overshadowed oO
2:58 PM