29.11.07
i was shocked bcos she has only been with us for a mth ...
but deep down i knew y she made that decision ...
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then came todae ...
i told myself not to get affected by someone else's decision ...
but fate has to show me the ugly side of being onboard ...
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din wanna present myself as being vulnerable or weak ...
but having someone bark at me unreasonably is not something i can get used to in a day or two ...
to think that i still have to smile at him knowing that he has stabbed me in the back ...
that screams extremely fake to me ...
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is this really what i wanna do for the rest of my life ??? or even the nxt few years or so ??? to sell my soul to slavery ???
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5 more mths ...
i'll either end up a stronger person or a loserish quitter ...
9:18 PM
20.11.07
given less than an hr ...
he made his way to the living room ...
pouched 1 of the leaves of mamee's moneyplant ...
& still had time to nap under my bedroom sofa bfor i found him!
i find it extremely cute that he recognised my room as his 'home' ...
but i guess everyone else din ...
so i'm barred from opening hammie's cage when i'm not around ...
7:03 AM
18.11.07
the other day the little guy had a mini excursion to the kitchen while everyone was asleep ...
i tot the cage we made for him was foolproof but nay ... hammie's smarter! lol
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big boss (BB) invited everyone to his hse for some partying on fri ...
mingling ard with pple is juz not my thing ...
+ i dun know 90% of the pple there & i dun drink ...
so half of the time i was checking out the time n wishing we could leave ... lol
loserish ...
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so nxt week's my last week n theres no news of renewal or extension ...
actually part of me is dying for a break ... lol
juz a few days where i dun need to stress myself with RMs / knowing my products well / committing nil mistakes ...
a trip to new zealand with mamee n small yi sounds tempting!
5:39 PM
4.11.07
(i think)
my poor boy ...
he can still eat n drink normally but ... i'll be depressed if i loose one of my front tooth ... so he muz be damn upset too ...
gonna get him a bigger bar-less cage ...
& pray that the tooth will grow back?
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this weekend is spent shopping (online) :D
yes i can finally enjoy pampering myself (& xy) with my hard earned money ...
(ok i noe there's still 3 weeks to payday but i've been too disciplined for the past 3 mths :P)
this is a muz get!
tooo cute :)
xy & i fell in love with it at first sight ... hoho
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i still have that same stack of readings that i've yet to touch ...
i m so dead ...
9:31 AM
1.11.07
seems like i can start counting down to my remaining
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somehow i feel that i'm not part of the family yet due to the contract status ...
everyone has been really nice to me though ...
(maybe my fang xiao ren red packet works :D)
& i've been learning lots of new stuff which is really enjoyable ...
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well well well ...
as my old saying goes ...
lets see where fate takes me ...
9:47 PM