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29.11.07


yest my fellow crewmate told me she's jumping ship ...
i was shocked bcos she has only been with us for a mth ...
but deep down i knew y she made that decision ...

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then came todae ...
i told myself not to get affected by someone else's decision ...
but fate has to show me the ugly side of being onboard ...

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din wanna present myself as being vulnerable or weak ...
but having someone bark at me unreasonably is not something i can get used to in a day or two ...
to think that i still have to smile at him knowing that he has stabbed me in the back ...
that screams extremely fake to me ...

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is this really what i wanna do for the rest of my life ??? or even the nxt few years or so ??? to sell my soul to slavery ???

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5 more mths ...
i'll either end up a stronger person or a loserish quitter ...

9:18 PM